My coolest friend

Tng zhen yang will never ever dedicate a post for his best friend here. So being shameless, here i am dedicating a post from him, for me, to myself!

Isn't that awesome?

Okay no zy, this post is just to tell you that i added the tagboard le. Just that in the process of adding the tagboard, i deleted the links. So hahahahahahahahahaha, you gained and lost something! Isn't that like so cool! Something like a life lesson learnt!

I just had to change the title and add a photo for you on your blog. Because you insisted and refused and resisted to budge on facebook. So here's all the revenge at one go! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay, now all your friends know you have this psychotic friend. T_T

Whatever lah, you need whatever changes you tell me again. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I can help you with those links again. Just that i don't know your friend's blog. I only know you link to me, pris, yx, yz, hanwei, suxin.. still got who? Aiya, you update me again.

:)

PS: Zy, you do know you can add colours to your blog right?

RAINBOW

I need HELP with tag board

I cant make the tag board appear there in that blank space next door -->
Help?
Sianz

Ok.I need to shop for CNY clothing. (specs, bag, shoes and whatever else nonsense)
Also need help with that.
Haha..

Another call for help would be:
Han wei, can help me download Evangelion: 2.0 You Can (Not) Advance
=)
better yet, just show me how to do it o.0

I want to go overseas.
You can help me with that too
Who wanna plan?
Lol

I feel not right.
Mid life crisis?
Help. o.0
Hahaha.

Before 9th Mono

Next year this time, I will either be cursing at SAF with the kangeroos in Australia or I will be organizing Christmas parties like nobodies' business and laughing at my understudies. Next year is like so far away. >.>

So many things have happened in this short space of time. Well, I have told some of you some of the things that has happened. But then, i guessed i am just very bad with time management to meet up with everyone. =(

I am getting a bit tired. And afraid. And sleepy. Haha.
Wish me luck for the mono intake. Hopefully they don't eat me for breakfast.

New Post, new start?

1) Very sway, first Guard Commander duty and some RSM from dunno wat brigade come and check the guard room le. Totally died on that day.

2) This stupid APSC is very stupid. Why do i need to learn about the role of a Armour Infantry Platoon Sergeant? Yes, I know their life very sad outfield. But to be struck in Gedong, my life saddest for now lor. (WHY CANT I HAVE NIGHTS OUT?)

3) Then why do i have to be cohesion/games OIC, is like i am so anti-social and unfriendly and i have to organize some cohesion? And play sports? Hahaha.. (and twice somemore, and they like to complain about paying $ and refusing to pay me) (and i owe a Master Warrant Officer $100 because of this -_-)

3) Then, the rest of them clearing leave and off or else slacking in camp, while i on course. >.>

4) And the old batch all ORD when i am away. Why like that? Cannot see them ORD. =(

5) And when I return back to camp next monday, I have to do Guard Com. duty again. o.O

6) And then have to return to Tekong to train to get ready for the BMT mono intake. OMG. Infantry days all over again. And i cannot imagine me taking mono intake. >.>

7) I think the pay rise and promotion is not enough to justify all this shit. haha.

*I sound totally childish sia. =)

I Need Help, Lol

Okay, to do it or not to do it. I could very well be answering the two questions that I have in mind. It is hard not to feel anything because everything just feels so wrong. Let's hope that by writing it down here, I can come to a solution.

Did I really change? I suppose this question, the answer will have to be partially yes. So many people have pointed this out to me since the appointment came and everything. Does what happen in army reflects somewhat of what is going to happen later in life? If so, this is a rather gloomy picture. I don't want to keep increasing the distance between us. This is the bottom of the curve I hope as far as I will ever go. Recently, the strength to go on is just lacking and I really feel like giving up. Although the relevant people have been informed or at least been hinted, I am not sure what would happen if I really press that particular button. Because it has already been quite long, and the damage has already been done and the one thing that it felt so wrong is that I feel that I wasted people's precious time and effort. But, if this is for the greater good in the near future, I am guessing I would still do it. If only, if only, I could have someone to talk to.

The next immediate question I am not at liberty to post about it. But Ken/Poh Choon, what would you do if you were in my shoes now? =/

Fate?

1. Thank you. You guys know who you are.

2. Anybody got information about blood clots in brain? Or about physiotherapy? Get back to me.

3. Sometimes you cant help but think that it is fate.

a Code

i got a message

nobody understands but i wanna try
enough is enough
end is near
don't i wish that i was just like everybody else

someone out there
only that i never try
more likely that i don't dare to
ehh, help.. lol
boring life i lead here
on certain days book in book out is already feels like nth
do you feel like this too?
you most likely think that i am crazy =)

to tell you or not
only when i can summon enough guts

unlikely to happen anytime now anyway
not if i can help it
don't wanna be me
even when it comes to this
really sounds like a very emo post
sux doesnt it
that i am always not making sense
and doing things like this
no..
don't go, lets talk...